I have been doing lots of school this evening. Well, I say lots. It has felt like lots but it probably has not been lots just a normal amount. Beside the point.
The fall of man. Sin. That's what has been the topic. Isn't that just everyone's favorite topic?! SIN. Yes, whether you realize it or not you do sin. It's ugly. Very ugly. No matter how big or small they appear in your eyes they are all felt by God.
Whew... That'll make you feel like crap real quick, huh?
Well, feeling "guilty" is not a feeling I am trying to push on anyone. Considering the way we use the word guilt today and the ways the word guilt was used in scripture are completely different. That's another post for another day.
Here's a picture of the what the fall of man looks like in real life.
Currently, my life looks like this.
Brand spanking new amazing house!
Friends and family who love me dearly.
A job I enjoy (most of the time)
Finances to provide for my needs and most wants.
Ability to further my education in something I enjoy.
The list of goodness could keep going. Then I have days like yesterday.
All I could think about yesterday was wanting to be married. Nothing else would go through my mind other than that one thought of marriage and children. It ruined the day. My heart coveted after one simple thing God has not given me yet. DESPITE the incredible list of things God is providing. I chose to weep over one thing I don't have.
That folks in its rarest form is the fall of man.
Eve chose to eat of the fruit she was directly told not too. Why? Because she thought she knew better than God. She thought God was holding out on her. She saw it and it looked alright. She made her own choice apart from trusting in God to have her best interest in mind.
Eve did it then and we do it now. Doesn't make it right just makes it what it is. The fall of man. Praise God for His grace that draws us back every so lovingly. Despite our consistent frustration with what God is giving or better yet what God is not giving.
Today was a new day.
"Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, 'The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him."
Lamentations 3:22-24
3 comments:
The waiting is the hardest part.
love you forever, mama
In my experience, when you get what you want, you start wanting something else to go along with it.
Yep, it's crazy when you realize the pasture really isn't greener on the other side! Look how that one turned out for Eve!.
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