A few weeks ago I interviewed at Lowe's. I like the store and it wouldn't require me buying new clothes to work there. Sounds ridiculous but logic is necessary! Interview seemed to go well. Several days later I heard from them and I didn't get any of the jobs I had applied for. Oh well.
A few days after that I get two different letters in the mail. One from Lowe's and one from a background check company. They both informed me that Lowe's found some information pertaining to my criminal history. Lowe's put a nice little quote on theres that simply said this may or may not have had anything to do with your employment status with Lowe's. Apparently, I have been in jail 3 times. Yep. Once including this past July.
I call the Lowe's HR lady and explain to her the situation. She went through a 2 year period where someone in her town had the exact same name. Main difference that other lady was a felon. She said the CPS tried to come get her children once and all sorts of madness happened during that time. She told me to get off the phone with her and call the background company back ASAP.
Currently, I am in dispute with that company. They only use first name, last name and birthday to look people up. To me that is ridiculous! They said it's a common problem and should be fixed in 15 to 30 days. What are the odds is all I keep asking. What are the odds?
Tomorrow I will be meeting with the high school principle for the school that's across the street. Hopefully, I can at least get on the substitute teaching list to bring in some money until I can find other work. Continually I am reminded the Lord has never not taken care of my needs so why even entertain the thought that that is about to happen.
Going to go try to stay out of jail from now on!
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
For so long they have defined who I am.
I grew up an athlete living in dependence upon the functionality of my hands and feet.
Then I went to college where walking to class and writing essays seemed to be a never ending task.
Following that came a ministry in Benton, TN. My ministry would have been rendered near useless if my hands and feet had been taken away.
I'm in a new place where I have no athletics, no school, no formal ministry, and no job. Everything here is new and different. Little did I know before moving here how much I based who I was on what I did. To some that sounds overly philosophical and just ridiculous. To me that statement is a representation of my sin. Christ did not give me talents in athletics, the ability to survive college or the desire to be in ministry so those things could define who I am. He alone is worthy of such definition. To be known as His child ought to render my heart more joy and peace than anything this world has to offer. From that joy, peace, contentment and stability my hands and feet should then go about desiring to bring Him glory. Unfortunately, I (we) often forget step one. Finding satisfaction in being His child. Thus we pursue hard after everything else to satisfy, define and give us worth. Creating a deep rooted problem. When those things I (we) are pursuing change or are altered for us the balance in life is lost and chaos begins to overwhelm. There is no stability. There is no contentment. There is no understanding. Everything we know has been uprooted.
What happens now is Christ allows us to clearly see where our devotion and commitment are found. The book of Job exemplifies that while his earthly life was shattered he pressed on towards trust in God. Yes, he hurt and struggled but he never let hurt and struggle remove his trust in God. His focus remained on the eternal side of things rather than the temporal.
Let's go back for just a moment to an earlier statement.
"To be known as His child ought to render my heart more joy and peace than anything this world has to offer."
Think that statement through...
Does it really matter that you are His child? What difference has that made in your life? Is that what makes you not want to drink, smoke, or cuss? Do you think that's why Christ died? So you could make good moral decisions?
He is more than moral decisions.
He is more than giving good gifts.
He is more than what makes a believer comfortable.
He is God.
He is the Almighty.
While I feel I am going through a phase where my hands and feet are tied up, my heart is being pruned (John 15:1-11). The sin that I have in my life has no place. Apart from Christ it will not be removed.
If we are never still before the Lord how will we ever see what He is doing? (Psalm 46:10) When was the last time you sat quietly in God's presence? If it truly mattered to you, you would make the time. Yes, life is busy but somehow we manage to make time for all things we deem important (work, family, friends, entertainment, etc.) When will Christ become important?