I wrote this on November 7th and posted it to Facebook.
They are bound to happen in some form or fashion to us all. I compare transitions in life to the way we transition when we drive. Sometimes you can drive through places like Dallas or Atlanta traffic flawlessly driving in and out of the other cars. Then there are moments when the driving seems to be going flawlessly for you but the car in front of you feels differently as their break lights scream at your face. They are immediately stopping while you continue to go forward! Don't act like you don't know what that moment feels like where everything in your car goes flying forward from the lurching stop you have to make. If you've never experienced that you should come ride with me. I seem to get behind these ridiculous people all the time!
I do believe the Lord has been preparing me for transition for some time now. However, I had literally no idea how or when it was going to happen. The desire for ministry that my boss and I have shared for the past 7 years has been for discipleship. It has become more than apparent that people that are in leadership above us do not share this same calling. More or less our hands have become tied. This struggle has been going on for 2 years now. Finally, two weeks ago my boss and I decided it was time to step out in faith. We both resigned from our positions through Camp Agape & Ocoee Resort Ministries. Obviously this is the reader's digest version of all that has gone on during the past two years. The Lord is more than aware of the intimate details, but both of us knew it was time for us to end our service at the Camp.
The details of what is to come have been scarce because I literally had no idea what was to come. This fall I took a two week trip to visit some different places and seek the Lord concerning my future. The beautiful and equally frustrating part for me is that my options are basically endless. I am single and debt free. The sky truly is the limit for where I could go and what I could do. My deepest concern was to be obedient to where the Lord desired for me to be. Again, I have been seeking the Lord about this time of transition because I knew it was coming. I just had no idea it was coming so quickly.
Through much deliberate time with the Lord I am being lead towards collegiate ministry. A week from Monday I hope to begin a new time of ministry in New Albany, Mississippi and having the opportunity to connect with students at Blue Mountain College. There is potential for an on campus job that would be in the Fall of 2012. For right now my desire is to get a part time job to pay my bills and be able to spend my free time working with students.
Matthew 28:19 speaks of making disciples of all the nations. Not merely making converts into a certain way of thinking, but true disciples of the gospel of Jesus Christ. To disciple someone is to teach and train. It is my desire to have the opportunity to teach and train college students in the deep truth of scripture. Helping them step past the surface American culture Christianity that plagues our society.
This is a risk for me. I have no salary. I have no place to stay. I am leaving the extreme comforts of familiar people that the Lord brought into my life in Benton. This past Friday through a strange situation of me leaving my purse at a restaurant the Lord graciously reminded me of how He is going to take care me through this process. The same way He has taken care of me for the past 7 years. For those that do not know I moved to Tennessee in much of the same situation with no home or salary. I could speak for days on His provisions.
Two weeks ago I felt like I was traveling through heavy traffic but it was going well. Then came that car with their screaming break lights. And life has been in a whirlwind since then. I do believe the Lord is definitely walking me through this transition. At this time I still don't know how it's all going to work out. So, for now I just kind of laugh at the question, "Soooo (awkward pause) what are you going to do now that you quit your job?" The best I can express at this point is to continue following the Lord. Wherever He leads I'll go.
Your prayers of course are always appreciated. More than anything pray for my desperateness to be in the Lord's presence would grow during this time. I will keep everyone posted as to where I land when the dust settles and the break lights aren't still screaming in my face!